Slept Long

Went to bed last night around 10:30 pm and woke at 8 am but can't say I'm any better rested than when I get less sleep.  We had to turn the heat up a degree last night - to 65 - because it was so cold.  Before this winter's episodes of record-breaking sub-zero temperatures, I would close my heat vents in my room at night.  I don't do that now because I'm so afraid of pipes freezing.  Now, with the heat running while I'm sleeping, I wake up slightly headachy and sneezing.  My bedroom has two heat vents which means more crap blowing out of the heat ducts while I'm sleeping.  I don't like forced air heating.  We had our vents cleaned once but that's probably a waste of money.

Here I am on the computer when I should be going out to the library and to exercise.  First, I may as well eat lunch so I don't fall down starving on the trail. 

Still have 4 more Y classes to use up.  I want to try the Full Body Conditioning class.  Yesterday, I didn't go out in the blowing snow and freezing cold but instead did a Jillian Michael's dvd - Ripped in 30.  I did the two segments for the first two weeks and it was good exercise.  Then I did my lower body exercises and called it a day.

Spouse remains convinced that if we move into the senior condos that we will never leave Los Alamos.  I remain convinced that he's short-sighted.  He will teach at UNM-LA this summer and fulfill his dream about teaching or at least determine if he wants to teach but I have no dreams to fulfill.  I'm just waiting for life to begin.  Waiting, waiting, waiting... 

Sometimes I feel that life is not worth living even though I know that, overall, it is.  I especially feel this way in the evenings.  At least during the day there is hope and activity.  The evenings are spent locked inside of this house, spouse is either laying on his back, glued to the TV, or sitting, eyes glazed, in front of the computer.  OK, OK - I too spend some time on the computer and I watch some selected library dvd's or public TV (the only commercial show I watch is Dr. Oz which I tape earlier and speed through the commercials) while I'm doing resistance exercises and, truthfully, I don't feel like going out in the evening. My time to go out is during the day. It seems though, that anymore, I hate when darkness falls.  It's so much cheerier when it's daylight out. 

Sister will come again this summer to visit.  The thought makes me even more tired.  I just feel like I don't have energy for a visit.  Now that she doesn't visit our Aunt, she's decided she enjoys vacationing with us. 
Fortunately, daughter doesn't mind having her sleep over there where they have an extra bedroom.  That helps a lot.  Daughter has two cats and sister is allergic to cats but I think sleeping in a bed at daughter's would be better than sleeping at our house on the floor on an inflatable bed. 

I'm looking forward to seeing my sister but just feel so tired and un-energetic about the actual mechanics of a visit.  Also, her devoted religiosity is so unlike my own agnosticism.  Like last year when we mentioned on a hike that the last volcanic explosion in the caldera was 1.1 million years ago and she couldn't help commenting that she didn't agree with that.  My thought was "Yeah, but you're WRONG!!!" but I made no comment even though I find her close-mindedness irksome. Like really, the world was only created, according to Bishop Ussher, in 4004 B.C.E.!! Ussher died in 1656 and I'm supposed to believe what he believed??? 

Probably best not to obsess over the visit and just handle it as it happens.  I've found in the past that she's able to argue far more effectively for her point of view than I am for mine so it's best not to bring up any religious discussions as it would only create acrimony and prove nothing.  I believe what I believe and she believes what she believes and never the twain shall meet!!